Poem: Losing

That second when
you decide to close the door of us.
Is when my heart stop beating for awhile.
The loudest scream, that make me realize.

I know you are the one who is hurt the most.
I snab your pure heart,
the plain paper which never brave to be written.
I broke it to the pieces, and cut it to the smallest one.

I miss the good old days,
when my sky was blue.
When our smile belongs to each other,
and find that my hands fit yours.

It never be just a dream.
For this is real, but now we feel so sick.
Lack of love, and the good old days abandoned us.
That second when I realize,
you closed the door and never open it again.
When I know the truth that I will not see that smile in the future.
I let the tears overflow me...

I ever told you that the biggest thing I fear of is to lose something.
But this is the way it should be.
I am sorry.
It is the only words I want to tell you.

When our memories buried together with love,
and everything points to a clarity, open our eyes widely,
that we can not walk together...

I put my big smile, just to let you see that I am all fine.
But it is useless, I did it to cover my big scar.
I found that I can not be without you, nor to be with you.
I do not recognize my heart.

Before the answer is coming,
on the next second I know,
that I already lost you...